hhhhmmmmfffffffffff

i get really frustrated at my lack of knowledge, my inability to express myself, to articulate what i’m feeling and thinking, especially when it’s in response to a piece of poetry or prose; a painting; a film; implications of current affairs, i could go on. sometimes i feel like i just don’t get it, and then when i do, i can’t articulate what i want to express adequately.

is it lack of basic knowledge ... ?
is it a sign of a stressed out brain ... ?
is it a lack of vocabulary ... ?
is it a lack of adequate thinking and processing time ... ?

or am i just a buffoooooon (or even a baboooooon!)

perhaps I need to focus my attention rather than maniacally trying to do everything all at once?! it's just that there's always so much i want to see to do to learn to experience.

so ...